Archive | October 2010

Fall Into You


This is a very sad song called…”Fall Into You.”  Made me think of my life and the choices I’ve made.  What if I lost everything I love the most? Would I be able to go on and be strong? Would I turn away and put blinders on, become so weak and not be able to see there was a higher being there who was waiting to catch me when I fall? Would all my hearing disappear and I just crumble? Which direction would I fall? What a powerful and touching song!

One of My Special Girls!


I remember the day I found out I was expecting you. I was so scared and unsure if I would be a good Mother. Before I knew it, you were breathing your first breath of air and crying out for me.” Hold me Mom, keep me safe.”  I took you into my arms and quickly your crying stopped. I looked at you in my arms. You seemed so tiny, so fragile. I was afraid I might break you right in my arms. I thought there is so much to learn about being a Mom. I had only one great example to go by. But I never saw her with anyone as small as you. But still, I remember she held me in her arms when I was sad, scared or sick. So that is what I’ll do. Hold you close in my arms until I know your alright. I realized as each day passed. You don’t need to be a perfect Mom, just a loving one. The rest will come naturally.

Turn Around

My baby, my own.

Turn around and you’re two.

Turn around and you’re four.

Turn around and you’re a young girl.

 

Going out of the door.

Turn around,  turn around and you’re a young wife.

With babes of your own.



 

 





Your beautiful from the inside in

And even though your all grown up

You’ll always be

My Special Girl

 

This post is dedicated to my first born, Jessica.

Love,

Mama

 

Take You Back


Isn’t it crazy how one song can take you back instantly to a moment a  person or even a spirtual place.  No matter what else has changed in you or the world…that one song stays the same, just like that moment.

I can remember back when I was 12 years old hearing this song sung in church. “I Believe.” It effected me so deeply. The impact was so profound. I found my self at complete peace. Something I hadn’t felt for a long time. I had just lost the only Mother I had known at 11 years of age. Moved to a new home, new family, new city and new church. I had felt so lost. Then this lady stood in the choir and sang this song – “I Believe”  and something in me change for the better from that day on.  Years passed and I never heard that beautiful song again. Then two weeks ago while I was cleaning my house what song comes on? That’s right, I Believe. But this time sung by Aaron Neville. I’m not embarrassed to say I got emotional. I actually weeped with joy. I was hit with that same peace I felt at 12 years old. On that same day two ladies knocked at my door and I let them in. Something I don’t normally do. But now i am glad I did. They enriched me with the their knowledge, grace and left me in spiritual peace. I had felt like something was missing in my life, but couldn’t put my finger on it. Until I heard this song then all the pieces to the puzzle fell into place.

Try and remember a place, a person, a smell a memory or a song that can take you back instantly to a good place. What’s your’s?

 

 

 I Believe

I believe for every drop of rain that falls a flower grows

I believe that some where in the darkest night a candle glows

I believe for everyone who goes astray

Someone will come to show the way, I believe, I believe

I believe above the storm the smallest prayer will still be heard

I believe that someone in the great some where hears every word

Every time I hear a newborm baby cry or touch a leaf or see the sky

Then I know why I believe