Archive | October 2009

Isn’t Fall Wonderful?


When I woke up this morning, my husband had opened our sliding door to let the cool air in. I took a few steps towards the  back door and I actually felt chilly. I just stood there, closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I didn’t want to miss one second of thus wonderful fall moment. With my eyes still closed I could hear the birds chirping and a couple of dogs barking, but nothing else. I thought, no matter what life throws my way today, you can’t take this serene smile from my face.

“Isn’t Fall Wonderful?”

“Remembering and Honoring My Mother”


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October eleventh of each year I usually become very sad, because that is the day I lost my mother. In all honesty it doesn’t get any easier on this date, because I can remember the events just like they were yesterday. But the last two years have become easier. Why? Because two year ago today my grand baby Brielle was born. So instead of looking at this day with sadness. I have something to rejoice!

Ever since I was a young girl, all I ever wanted was to meet my mother. I often wondered if I looked anything like her, if we liked the same music, the same foods. I longed to know what it felt like to feel her arms wrapped around me, making me feel safe and loved.  When I was forty one years old,  my hopes and dreams came true.  With each visit I learned more and more about my mother. She was quite a dancer, had a great sense of humor, excellent cook, and that chinese food was her favorite.

Sadly we found out she was battling lung, liver and kidney cancer. Her doctor told me, ” I’m sorry there is nothing more we can do for her. Let her have what ever she wants within reason. She only has about six to mine more months.”   I wondered why God, would  take her from me again? I just found her and you need her now? But like anything else in my life, I accepted the cards that were dealt to me. I’m not saying I liked it. I just know there’s nothing I can do to change it.

Let me share a little bit more about my mom. Even though my mom barely had a high school diploma, and only stood at 4 ft 11″, she was smart about life and knew what it took to be successful and she wanted that for me. She would tell me “Remember to always be able to take care of yourself.” But she also knew that you had to know how to take care of your man. She would always say, “Take care of your man and he will take care of you ten-fold.” I took all that advice to heart. And to this day, I take those words very seriously. What an incredibly strong, amazing woman she was.

Do I have any regrets? Just one. I never got to find out what it felt like to feel her arms wrapped around me. On a good note. We now celebrate a new life!

Mom, we miss you so very much
On this date every year;
And not just then, but every minute,
Since you went away.

 

 

You became the center of our lives
Before your soul passed on;
It’s just so hard for us to believe
That you are really gone.

 

 

But we celebrate the life you lived
And all the things you gave us;
Our wonderful memories, Mom, of you
Are the things that will comfort and save us.

 

 

Please think of us, as we think of you
With hearts so full of love;
We’re looking up at you, my Mom,
As you look at us from above. 

I Love & Miss You!

Mom

 

“Conquering My Fears”


 "Conquring My Fears"

I’ll let you in on a little secret of mine. I’m extremely fearful of heights. This did not stop my son Ran from insisting  that I conquer my fears on his birthday, which was September 10, 2009. Let me back up a little – I had asked my son Ran if there was anything special he’d like to do on his birthday day?  He said, “Yes, I’d like to go to the Science Museum with just you.” I felt so honored that my son would like to spend part of his special day alone with me. Talk about lumps in the throat as big as an avocado pit. So off we both went to the Phoenix Science Museum. We had a blast exploring all the interesting exhibits. Then, as we’re about to leave, we both notice this exhibit called the “Bike Cycle.”  The bike is balancing on a cable about 20 feet above the ground. I actually had to talk my son into trying the bike cycle. Once he did, he seemed pretty happy he had. I thought after he was done we would be leaving, but no he insisted it was now my turn.  Nervously laughing I said, ” no way!”  Then my son says, “Come on, Mom. Conquer your fears for my birthday, okay?” Shrugging my shoulders and slowly dragging my feet, I paid for my turn. Trust me when I say. I was very scared. My hands were sweating and shaking , and my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest at any moment.  But I did it and even gave a little wave at the end.

“Sometimes we just have to face our fears in the face and just laugh!”

Night of the Living Dead…Starring Alisa Huff


 My grand daughter Alisa, isn’t the typical 13th year-old in 8th grade. She has always had a flair for the arts, as a matter of fact. When she was a baby, she loved to act on cue; she would giggle, smile, cry, or looked shocked or worried. She is an amazing kid. You should have seen her on that stage tonight. I was the proudest grandma sitting watching her play her part. I wasn’t even nervous for some reason. I knew in my heart she would give 110%. She played a Zombie in the play, Night of the Living Dead. Based on the 1968 screenplay by George Romero. After the show my sister Olga & I each gave her a dozen roses. Her Mom Jennifer, gave her two large bags of candy she requested. My Alisa was one happy young lady tonight. Let me add – Alisa also enjoys writing songs, stories, drawing pictures, singing, and playing the guitar. I wish I had some of her special talents. But since I don’t, I will just enjoy living them through her. I’m so proud of her. Can you tell? lol

Starring Alisa Huff

Starring Alisa Huff

I Saw Life Through Different Eyes Today


My sister Olga is fighting the battle of her life, she has cirrhosis of the liver, advance stage. You would think this would change her in some way, but no,  she still wakes up with a smile on her face. I saw life through different eyes today after said to me, “Sister, if I was told I had only six more months to live, I wouldn’t just lay in my bed and feel sorry for myself and give up. I would get up and live my life to the fullest.”  What an incredible lady she is. I’ve always been proud of my sister, but today I am in awe. My Sister 09